It’s so sad how I’m watching my own relationship fall apart.

How I’m the catalyst to every argument. 

I realize everything I’m doing wrong, but I still act the same; immature. 
I still cry over petty things and call out for attention.

He puts the stupid arguments I create behind him and still accepts me.

Hes always so willing to bend over backwards for me, to answer my every whine, and always put me first. 

But why can’t I do the same for him? 

“No! You don’t get any personal space.
No! You don’t get to hangout with your own friends.

NO! you don’t get to your own life. “

.. Those are the things I would do. 

Control what he does, but I can’t seem to control myself. 

I know exactly what’s wrong with me, but I just can’t seem to follow them and put them into actions… 

What the fuck is wrong with me? No, seriously.
I think I seriously need help…